Bad Girl

I guess you know I'm Bad (bad)
[I got a problem]


Shopaholic is what they call 'em
my addiction, my prescription
Gimme shoes and give me bags
how much you want I need 'em bad


All them girls be checking my bags
why they be bittin' my swag
I guess you know I'm Bad (Bad)


What a bad little girl I am (I got a problem) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am (I need you to solve it) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am
Bad bad bad bad bad
What a bad little girl I am (I got a problem) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am (I need you to solve it) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am
Bad bad bad bad bad


Need no bargain, need no sale
I want the best, I dress me well
Love Cavalli dipped in Versace
Chick ain't cheap and everybody knows


All them girls be checking my bags
why they be bittin’ my swag
I guess you know I'm Bad (Bad)


What a bad little girl I am (I got a problem) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am (I need you to solve it) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am
bad bad bad bad bad
What a bad little girl I am (I got a problem) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am (I need you to solve it) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am
bad bad bad bad bad


She a bad girl, a real shopaholic,
She buying everything up man I can't call it,
And she a walking store, I'm talking bout her clothes,
I just pause, I'm in awe, cuz she a fashion show,
Real Louis bags and breathe gucci,
Got a wardrobe like she's staring in a movie,
And she ain't even famous but she got her own groupies,
She got her own groupies,
She got her own groupies,


What a bad little girl I am (I got a problem) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am (I need you to solve it) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am
bad bad bad bad bad
What a bad little girl I am (I got a problem) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am (I need you to solve it) (bad bad)
What a bad little girl I am
bad bad bad bad bad

WiSh I kEEp You MuCh LOngEr

I knew he had a better reason, he will never hurt me so bad. I wish I knew what I was doing in this relationship. I never meant to over stress or pressure him. Its funny when I love someone so badly, it just slipped of my hand, just like that. That was like in a flash. Sometimes, I wish I realize before it was too late; now I know why men will be seduced by me but will not stay long! I know I am very bad to every men and i can't even control my anger towards 'em. I am still wishing I have magic to change myself and would be all that you want perfectly. I just let My emotional overpowered me, I felt so out of control and i've never changed. I keep doing mistakes in relationship and i guess i'm so destined to be single :'(

I bet i love him too much till i couldn't find way to forget him. yeah, he's right. it's really hard to forget him. I close my eyes, I see him, I really have no idea how am I gonna live this life which is full of crap. I am starting to believe that love is full of crap. I was being blind folded and guided with love, now, I don't wanna be a blind folded. I feel so scared, I am so terrified that I will not find my way. God knows how sincere I was, everyone around me knows how I am in love. They thought he will keep me safe, happy, secured, and guide me through everything. He is the only person I pour my heart to, no matter happy or sad. Now, I am blogging, I really feel so alone. 

Wish i keep you much longer, but i realize i can't be in relationship with you anymore. I don't know how to tell the world that i've to end our relationship. I really need someone to tell me, Girl, it is going to be alright. I hope someday, in near  future, He seen me myself  much more better than the girl that he used to know, I'm someone who has good demeanor, independent, capable and etc..etc.. Baby,no one would believe how we lived our 10 months. I just wish that time would freeze or just begone. I know there are alot of people that I love and they love me as well. But, it is different that how he loved me. Im very tired of crying which is caused by myself.

I have to just let it go.No more my superhuman :'( baby, whatever we had are all the sweet moments. I am not regretting because I know that love we shared was a miracle. Something that all girls or guys would wanna experience. He is still my best, til now. I will say he is a good friend, the best boyfriend, a nice brother, a wonderful teacher and lovely hubby. Take care and farewell, you are always in my heart. Somewhere inside there, I am sorry for pressuring you, Pulling your hair, kicked your back, slapped you, biting you and your whole body pain caused of me, stressing yourself or even getting mad with for no reason (I'm a the bad girl friend in the world who born in the world with all the bad attitudes and who needs rehab). It was not he took me for granted, I took him for granted. It was not him in wrong, I was in wrong. I should be a Miss Independent, I should be more understanding. I want to change for a better purpose, I want to stop being possessive and obssessive. We had too much together, to lose it, I would be a dumb ass. I should have put him in concern like how he does all the time and really wished I have magic. I wished I never took him for granted. Sometimes I don't meant what I said to him but I show anger because I just wanted attention. It is wrong I know, when he wants something, he wouldn't show it but he would tell me.Baby, I never dated you to make you regret or to compete with you. I dated you because I loved you. and loved you SO much! Sharing my life with you was the blast and being in your arms was the safest. Now I am saying, I will walk forward, to be someone!

Start from now on, i've to take some steps to not think about him anymore. i know i can't but till when he wants to get through the pain?  I'm NOT tired or through with him yet, poor him, he has tonnes of things going on in his life now and boy he must be thinking "I thought she will understand and be with me but damn, she just doesn't". anyone in his situation will actually be in dead end. He always in pain,I'm the selfish,the craziest,the ego,the paranoid and the bad ones. I just wish i can stop punishing him.. I promise you things will change baby. Before this, I wasn't understanding but now, I realized and I myself know that I have tonnes of things to catch-up. Sometimes, When I realize things are better when you guiding me. i'm the miss dependent Who never made decisions for herself. Seriously, I never hated him even after what he did to me. I was just traumatized because it was happened few times. Now, I don't wanna put you as my hopes and i love to get what I wanted the most in life. As i know, your first love is your lappy, mine as well, my first love is what i wanted to be in my future. 

Baby, you will always be in my heart. you are my desire my heart is so on fire for you i cant stop loving you loving you oh hell to the No! baby, i dont wanna end up this I wanna be someone you can turn to baby i never wanna lose you theres nothing i wont do so ill watch you like a movie ill sing you like a song read you like a story if it takes me all night long keep you like a secret ill tell you like a ? its true its true that i will love you like i always do love you like i always do love you like like you are so amazing you stepped in and saved my life everytime we are together my time is yours forever my world is all yours. i dont wanna end up in your reviews. I wanna be someone you can turn to baby i never wanna lose you theres nothing i wont do, so ill watch you like a movie ill sing you like a song read you like a story if it takes me all night long keep you like a secret ill tell you like a ? its true its true that i will love you like i always do. baby i wish i wouldn't and never leave you, i will watch you like a movie ill sing you like a song read you like a story if it takes me all night long keep you like a secret ill tell you like a ? its true its true that ill love you like i always do. i said im gonna love you yehh ohh i wanna love you i said im gonna love you again. ohh ohh yehh i love you like i always do yehh yehh im gonna love you more love you like i always do but i can't. I wish you will get a better life soon. 

I really wanted to give up and move on. I will trying very hard, really hard till i don't know what happened for the past. I hate all that and my heart hurts like fuck! Hurts like Fuck! it's fucking hurt because i can't make him happy with me. I know i;m gonna miss him badly,God! Is it what you've written for me? That I will finally find a guy that I love the most and he will slip right from my hand?God, I need you to help me to forget him. You have taken him away from me, and I know I will never find him back. So, please God, help me to go through all these fucking shit and bring me back to how I was. My life would really suck without him? I believe I have totally lost him, please do take him away from my head!

Have a blast, have a great day! I hope you see what I have written here because you are a star and thank you for moulding me into a star! I'm gonna miss you like i always do. I don't know how to face you and tell you on your face that I have to end our relationship. I love you always.

i love him alot.

He takes me in his arms the lights in heaven dim the stars fall from the skies when he holds me close to him.

The moon sighs deeply I find that I do the same I melt at his caress as he softly whispers my name.

At last our lips touch as we both slightly moan this is where I am to be by your side I do belong.

5 Secrets to Staying In Love

Just about everyone wants to know how they can make their relationship better. They want to know how they can deepen the commitment and love between each partner. Unfortunately relationships are not something you can provide a "to do" sheet for and all will be solved, but with these five key secrets you can certainly improve your chances for getting all you desire out of your relationship.

Do things unexpectedly.
One key secret to a successful relationship is compromise. Meeting halfway on things shows your partner that you really do care about their viewpoint and you are willing to work on making each other happy. Every so often make it a point to do something that you normally would not agree to or feel like doing. When you keep your partner constantly surprised by your actions, you regenerate that "new love" feeling time and time again. So, when your partner asks if you want to try that new restaurant…say yes! If they ask if you want to try a new hobby…say yes!

Show your loyalty.
Nothing strengthens a relationship quite like watching your partner go to bat for you, especially against close friends or family members. It shows that you consider your relationship a team. If you harass one member of a team, you harass them all. When you side with other people against your partner you make them feel alienated and the seeds of hidden resentment become planted. You can show loyalty positively as well by bragging about your partner's recent accomplishments to friends and family.

Be supportive.
Challenges and opportunities are always going to occur. You can't stop them from happening. Hopefully for both of you the changes in your lives are positive ones. The secret key here is having a supporting and understanding mate in your corner to help you through your ups and downs. If you lose your job, it's quite a bit easier to bounce back when you have someone who's willing to support your choices and any new directions you might want to branch out to. If you want a career or lifestyle change, imagine the difference having someone who will carefully consider and support those changes? When your partner is presenting you with a challenge or an opportunity, treat them the way you'd want to be treated.

Maintain a healthy dose of individuality.
Personal time and space are essential to growing individually. Everyone one needs private time to do the things they want to do. It helps refocus attention to the priorities. Sometimes you or your partner may just need time to release emotions from a bad day, instead of bringing it home with them. Learning to respect and notice when your partner needs some individual time shows that you are committed to not only your relationship, but their long-term happiness as well.

Love your partner.
Love is obviously a crucial element in a successful long-term relationship. But having love isn't enough. You need to be in love. The phrase "love is a verb, not a noun" certainly applies here. Don't hesitate to write that quick love note, give that deep kiss, sit next to each other at a restaurant or hold hands in public. The little things go a long way towards establishing a deep, intimate connection with your partner. As simple as it sounds, this action is probably the most commonly overlooked and ignored.

Never knew dificulties

OMG! I wish i never knew love and never knew hurt. I' trying, trying and trying but when am getting a little bitter, i just stumble and fall down again. I really wish i don't wanna be in love sometimes, I was never been in love like how i am with him. Why it is so hard for me to make him happy? I don't have guts anymore, I thought it would be easy to love him and make him smile everyday but i never know it's really fucking hard. Why is it so hard for me? Is it better for me to live single? I f now, the answer is Hell to NO!! How to stay single when u know he is the one that u really love? When u know u can actually be with him and everything will just be over? Oh no, i can't even stand that small little break then how am i suppose to stand if it really ends. Should i kill myself because of him? Naah.. I couldn't do that. Probably am being out of control for few weeks or months maybe years or I'm just tasting a little bit hell in the world.

I'm trying so damn hard to changing me. I wanna be the girl who always been supportive, loving, caring,honest,loyal with him, gives all the freedom and listens to him no matter what and i want he always be happy. Oh gosh, I'm madly in love with him.

I found you when i was in the dark and u come into my life and brighten it up. I will never forget that i've you in me because i was very proud to be yours. You changed all the imposibles to possibles and u turned me into a person with full of dreams. I'm now gonna run after what i wanted aggressively, and that's because of you. you opened up my eyes and made me into a confident girl (progressing) You thought me so much that i needed to know, well knowing you wasn't a big mistake and losing you is really is. I wanted to be better because of you and i still want to improve. You will always in my heart and guess what, u understood me the best. No one like you and only you in the world. You are irreplaceable. You had always been honest to me (i guess), so do i, but am sorry i tried indeed made the hell a great couple.

The ego me, the childish (ecouter) me, the miss dependent, the fussy me, the annoyed me, the lazy me, the evil me, and the heartless. I never knew my mistakes and always talked too much without learning from my mistakes. Oh yeah, U always remains me that " Action speak louder than words." Yeah it's truly right. I've never shown any changes in me. Haha.. u are a star for me and thanks for moulding me into a star :P (but haven't change to be a star yet)

Sighs.. Is it hard to make you happy? I never knew it's so been difficult to me. I really wanted to give up and move on sometimes. But that's foolishness and immature. I wish i've a magic and i would make people happy with me. hmm.. I wish i can stop hurting himself. I just don't want because he i love the most than anything in the earth. I wish i'm gone elsewhere, i wish i can leave my heart behind or cut it open and show it to him that's he's the only one. I just wish i could all of them. I wish i've a magic but its useless.

Lately,My darling is so moody or maybe he's hurting so badly deep inside his heart. I wish i know what's happening inside him but no, i didn't. Only him and god know what's really happening in him. When i see his blue face, i always wanted to be there to cuddle him, shared everything with him and tell him everything gonna be alright. If he is hurt because of me, i wish i could take away the pain by getting him away from him but i don't know that's not what he wanted. I wish i will be there for him and work things out together and to be his cheerleader. Love is everything, everything in life that we have to go through together.

I never once regretted for being his because i am very tremendously proud for being his! I don't give a fuck to whoever always talk bad about him. Or whoever is trying to advice me bout the relationship. Past is a past.. and i wish i don't wanna know anything which is related with the past. Nothing we could do with the past. We're living in the present and trying to be the best in the future but we learned a lot from the past. What has done it is done and i don't wanna think bout his past anymore and please do not discuss with me even once. I wanted to be a better person in future and to be who i am, i guess this is part and parcel of life.

Es tut mir leid

I feel I myself having so much of problem and he is creating all these shit, making me so so live less. I was being blind folded and guided with love, now, I am no more being blind folded. I feel so scared, I am so terrified that I will not find my way. God knows how sincere I am, everyone around me knows how I am in love. I wish he would keep me safe, happy, secured, and guide me through everything. He is the only person I pour my heart to, no matter happy or sad.
Sayang, its not that easy for me to give up on the love I had which I am still having. It will not be easy for me to replace you with someone else. I know you lost my trust and this wasn't the first time that I'm disappointed you and I wanna explain my faults and hope you will be give me a chance to build it the trust back. But damn, hoping is a big word to me! I really felt like an ass hole still.. Sayang, can I have another chance? Can I? I promise I will not screw up that chance, just a chance.
Sayang, I will only stay with you to make you happy, if I can't make you happy, I should try but if still can't, I have to leave and pray that you will find someone who will make you happy.
Every relationship has flaws, if a relationship is not balanced, it is not called a relationship, it is more like a robotic relationship that was being automatically set!
Every one's relationship has happiness, sweet, bitter, sadness, hatred, annoying stuff and blah..blah..

Sayang, I am not foolish, If I find myself is not happy in this relationship, I will call it an end. I do not have to wait for anyone to speak for me unless you, yourself is unhappy with the relationship. I know I did a lot of wrong stuff in this relationship. We can put all that in a full stop and start up new, it will be that easy if we both really want it. I want to know one last thing, do you still love me. That is most important than any further explanations. I know a lot of people works out their relationship but why we just can't? I know you still afraid that i wouldn't be able to provide you happiness. Do you know that I am smiling now because of you? Now I am crying and in agony, it is because of you as well. If I feel this relationship is a bullshit, then I will not even try to work things out again. God, I am trying so very hard. Can you see me trying? If so, please try to answer me and give him a big knock right on his baldy head! I love him so much! I need his care, his love, when he says he loves me. He doesn't have to tell me but I can feel it, it is that powerful.

I will change for a better future, I will no matter what try and make him happy. Your arms are still my most safest place to hide and my love is real and sincere. Just say you love me! Without you, there is no reason for me to smile! Sayang, I know that you will leave me soon and will never come back and you cannot visualise any future for two of us, I just wanted everyone to be happy and in the end I hurt myself. Why God? Am I so destined to get hurt all the time? I thought I will find my happiness and of course life has to be balanced. But then again, it is so not fair at all when it happens to me all the time.

Nothing really seems going where it suppose to be going? God, is there such thing called meant to be? What does it mean anyway? I thought if I want it to be meant to be, I have to work for it. Isn't it? Then why everything seems to be hurting and stabbing me? I knew what I have done and I willing to make it change and start it all over again. Sayang, I've never cheated on you and thought to cheat on you, I have been so truthful to you. Should I just leave it? I shouldn't as well, I wish I knew what I shall do.

Am i just wasting my youth life to be with him even i know that he will leave me soon.Is it calls as a stupidity?! Oh God.. I really in love with him. I just do not know what to do than constantly praying to you. I want to improve in things that I have been doing. Would you help me? Would you? Have I been really bad to anyone? Maybe?! You taught me to love everyone even my enemies. Haven't I been doing that? Haven't I been doing things accordingly and never expected more? I just don't understand what I have to do more? Help me God. Please do not just sitting there and looking at me saying Do not worry or You would send me a good person for me. Isn't he a good enough for me? Why i meet him? Why am i involved in this games? I am trying not to worry to loose him, I am not. I won't! I guess that is why I have been a lil out of control! I should just let you handle and try to add in some spices instead. Maybe I am just too ego, wanted to do everything myself. See what I have done?A huge mess I am trying to wipe it off! I love him and no one else. Yes, I do and I don't want to burden you. I want you to be happy with the one you love and not be pressured by me.

Sayang, Love is hurts but it is worth it to go through it. I wanna do anything for you and most of all love you the most. I fight with you always because of small things, get jealous with you even a small stuff like an ant, bite you to punish yourself, cuddle and lean on you when everything is over. I love to kiss your cheeks and see you're sleeping all night long and would sleep happily in your arms because I know you're the one for me and that i loved you with full hearted. When things fuck up, no matter how, you will try and solve it to be my little bunny. My Love is always for you and sometimes i think am not doing it enough.

When i see you hurt so badly, i always wanted to be there for you to cuddle you and say that everything will be alright. If you're hurting because of me,i wish you could take away the pain by getting away from you but i do not know that is not what you wanted.
Love is everything, everything in life that am going through. I don't need to be afraid to be in love because sometimes,i wouldn't know that he will take care of everything. I'm blind for that moment because I love him too much. My heart explains the feelings and the hurt.I have heard it said.True love comes around only once in life.. You know what, I've never believed that until I met you. I now know what true love means,for never have I loved someone as I love you…Because our love is eternal,there's nothing left to say,Except to say this one last word.I love you more each day

Sayang, Loving you is not a difficult job because you aren't a demanding at all. Always wishes i always listens and follow the rules that you've given to me. Loving you is not difficult at all, Loving you is the best thing that i have in my life because seeing him happy makes your day. That is why girls are always stinger than guys, no offend. Girls think thoroughly in a relationship because all guy can think is whether she is happy. Guys would always want to be successful to make her happy in the future and it is girls job to spice up the relation. Girls should always be miss independent, not possessive or obsessive, not stressing or pressuring him up.

I love you and still, I do not have any reason to stop loving you!

Ich liebe Dich

One day as I was thinking

Thinking as I often do

The subject turned to love

And immediately I thought of you

I thought of how you have changed my life

And relieved all my pain

I thought of how you've carried me

And all things in life I've gained

As I pondered these wonderous thoughts

I came upon one more

And thought about my sinful life

Only as it was before

And then it was there I realized

How much you've changed me inside

And made me the most gracious person

Now one more thing I cannot hide

I never thought of love

As an object or a person

I often thought about it being bliss and maybe a potion

I did not think it was something I could see

But now I see love everyday, everytime I look at me

It might be by my definition only

But you have made me love

And also you have made my life

Not just high but above.